The Stirrup Queen's Manifesto

This is something everyone should read whether you know someone dealing with infertility or not.
The Stirrup Queen's Manifesto

you should see these embryos!

This morning we arrived for the embryo transfer. Everything went great! The first two strongest embryos they thawed continued to grow. (pictures coming soon). I am on bed rest for a couple of days, but have taken off of work for the next 2 weeks. I don't want to sit here with the computer on my lap for long, so i'm going to elaborate on this morning later. Friends and family, feel free to call or visit. I'm just laying around letting these little guys hatch and implant.

the embryo transfer is tomorrow

I am so excited! The time is finally here. We get to bring home two embies tomorrow if everything goes right. I will have many days ahead to start journaling, but as for now, I need to get some sleep so we can get an early start. First though i wanted to share some affirmations I found here. They feel very powerful to me. Here they are:

Today I accept you into my womb, my thoughts positive, my body strong.

Ready to receive you, my thoughts positive, my body strong.

Surrounded in love, my thoughts positive, my body strong.

Together we unite, my thoughts positive, my body strong.

BlogHer Letter Submission

this letter was written on March 4, 2008 and submitted to BlogHer, titled " A Letter to My Body"

Dear Uterus,

I bet you have been wondering what has been going on with me these past few years.  For so long you had been forgotten, never really thought of in the first place.  You have probably felt abandoned, cast aside and homeless.  For this I apologize and pray that what I have offered you is proof of my sincerity.  We have never  had this talk, at least not to the depth at which I am now.  You and I were both raised in a seemingly loveless home, so we have a lot in common.  I didn't know about love and the abundance at which it could be given and received.  Your journey into this realization took a little longer than mine, but I can sense that you have finally made it there. 

These past few years you have been poked, prodded, needled like a junky and fed drugs like a child trapped in a crack house.  This was not done in vain, I promise you.  This was done to prepare you for the most important job of your life.

I know that you have felt several losses too.  I just want you to know that it was not your fault.  There is a force so much greater than even the two of us combined.  His name is God.  And for some reason, only He will ever know, He gave those gifts to us and then He called them home.  It seems at first like an empty gift, but it's not.  He left behind three beautiful little angels to care for and watch over you and me.  So, uterus, don't grieve any longer for those souls.  They are happy to be with you at this time in your life.  By the way, I can see that you are giddy with excitement over having a new life to hold.  I'm so proud of the job you have done so far and I know that you have given this baby a safe and nurturing home in which it can grow and thrive.  And remember, this baby is a gift from God, not a burden or a test.  Our lord God will take care of both of us.  I love you.

Love, The Mom