VMB --Yeah that's me!

1.)  Gang name: "Patches".  This friend I yousta have said somethin' stupid to me once and I cut da bitch!  Then I felt like that may have been a little over the extreme, so I gave her a patch to staunch the blood flow.  We're not friends anymore, but I always carry around patches in case it happens again.  That's why my home-girls call me "Patches".

2.) Picture: done!

3.)  Vet button posted. Check it out!

4.)  Crappy comment:  (Post-miscarriage) "Well, it wasn't meant to be.  It's probably for the best"  Who's best, bitch?  You've got kids!

5.)  Add name and permalink to VMB comment:  Done!

6.)  Shout out to 5 other VMB's:  Done!

7,)  See #5

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22 weeks + 4 days

I NEED to show these "pre" pictures for you to appreciate the last one.  This is me a year ago, pre fertility drugs.  I've always had a bootay.  This is me doing an Ashiatsu massage.  Yes, it is very hard to do with both feet, hence the sweat and concentration. 

This is me with Robert and good friend, Wendy taken last summer.  I remember it well because we were doing IUI's and I couldn't drink.  Robert looks like he drank mine for me. (Luv ya, mean it!)  Oh wait!  I was drinking a Guinness.  I must have been trying to drown my sorrows!

This was me two days ago ... fat chick hiding a 1 pound baby in her ... (?)  Hell, baby skeletor could be anywhere!  I'm registering for a jogging stroller.  Maybe I will actually start jogging!

Funny thing is that EVERYONE says that pregnancy agrees with me.  I'm still trying to figure that one out.

Really, the weight only bothers me a little bit.  It just amazes me at how quickly I'm changing.

As long as our little baby boy is healthy, I'm happy.

************** on another note**************

I need to share this.  I've been craving chocolate cake like crazy.  No, I haven't gone nuts with it either.  I do need to watch my sugar intake because I'm hypoglycemic and it will hit especially fast right now.  I made some adjustments to the boxed cake mix and it actually tastes BETTER than made the regular way.  I substitute plain yogurt for all of the oil and use only egg whites in place of whole eggs (4 egg whites instead of 3 whole eggs), that way I get my protein and eliminate all of the fat and cholesterol.  I do need to keep it in the fridge though because it is super moist and will spoil faster.  I make it in a bundt pan and leave off the icing and it is AWESOME!  Try it if you are craving cake!

I'm very sad ...

I couldn't write todays posts all in one sitting.  I haven't kept up with reading about my blog-friends the past few weeks.  When I finally got around to it this week, I read about No Swimmers.  Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.  It's strange how we (blog-friends) come to care so much about each other and most of us have never met.  I felt my heart sink and my eyes swell up with tears.  Why?  Why does this have to be so hard?  We are good people and we will make the best parents! 

After going through all those emotions, of course I start to freak out yesterday because Skeletor has been pretty quiet lately.  Then I go to work and one of the foster grandparents asks me the usual questions (do you know what it is? -- when are you due?).  I tell her and then she looks at my belly and says "You're not that big!"  I'm like "what do you mean?"  Then the freak-out starts happening.  I left work and went to W.alM.art and bought one of those monitors that I can't seem to work.  I then ate everything that I had ever eaten when I have felt the baby move.  Nothing - on both accounts.  Couldn't hear the HB and couldn't feel any movement.  I had to do a HUGE reality check.  I can't freak myself out any more.  I'm driving myself insane.  So, I will have to offer prayers at a distance for those I hear of that have lost their babies.  Maybe in a few weeks I will be able to come back and offer some support to those of you going through hell.  It's not that I don't care, it's that I care too much.  I am offering up prayers every day for you.

Nurse " Ain't got no people skills"

First -- we are definately having a BOY!  Everything looked great with him and he weighs right at 1lb.  

Second -- My ailments have cleared up. Yay!

Third -- Dumb ass case manager for my doctor (Nurse "Ain't got no people skills") cancelled my appointments and wrote me off when I requested my medical records.  She had the balls to yell at me right there in the hall-way just outside of the waiting room.  I couldn't get her to understand that in order for another doctor to look at my records and decide if they would take me, they actually need to SEE the records which REQUIRES me to sign a MEDICAL RECORDS RELEASE FORM!  The she brought up some damn green dot that she took off of my file and that means I'm no longer a patient ... blah, blah, blah.  Whatever ... her husband probably hates her.  I thank God yet again for Robert.  He saw that crazy look in my eyes and decided to intervene.  If it wasn't for him I probably would have been escorted out of the doctor's office by the police for assault and battery.    Anyway, I did end up meeting with my doctor and I obviously had the u/s.  My doctor was great.  He just asked me what was going on and got a good laugh out of hearing that one of his colleagues was doing water births.  I don't think he (my dr.) totally understands what a water birth involves.  I believe he thinks that the doctor actually gets in the pool to deliver the baby (yuck).  That privilege is only for husbands and other life partners.  Also, yesterday I did hear back from the CNM (midwife) and I have an appointment with her in four weeks.  So, everything is working out fine.  

Today I get to stay home from work.  We are having a bedroom suite and a glider recliner delivered this morning.  So, I'm busy cleaning out the room and dusting and vacuuming.  This should go along way toward getting us organized and give me a little comfort.

Hope everyone has a great father's day weekend!  Maybe I will have some more pictures coming, definately a belly pic.  Everyone is telling me I'm getting big!

TMI - too much info involved in this post!

Well, to start off, I finally felt the baby move last week (wk 20).  Skeletor did a few tumble-sets and was quiet for about five days.  I took a Craniosacral therapy course (Upledger) in B.R. Thursday through Sunday and he was a little more active during that.  I got to have some bodywork done, some good some not so good, so all in all even-though sitting through class all day is hard, it did have it's rewards.  Last week I also thought about when I was going to get a yeast infection and BAM!  I did.  I ended up going to an urgent care clinic because I didn't want to chance it being something else and wasting my time and money treating the wrong thing, not to mention having to sit through a class for four days being miserable.  Robert called first to see if it was appropriate for me to go there instead of my regular dr. (whom isn't so regular now - will explain later). They said yes, come on in ...  So we did, at 10:00pm.  I answered a whole lot of questions and the dr. came in and didn't even look at me. She said that they don't have a microscope so they couldn't look at it anyway.  What the heck, they have this fancy machine that will tell you if you have all kinds of other horrible infections and ailments, but NO MICROSCOPE!  So, I get a prescription and run along on my merry way.  The only 24 hr pharmacy didn't have the medication so they pull something off of the shelf (OTC).  Same stuff!  45 minutes later we are heading home.  It's just about midnight by then.  Getting up for work the next morning was shot to hell.  

********* will finish later -- the laptop battery is going dead and it is almost 4:00 a.m., so I'm not going to dig around in the bedroom for the charger to plug it in *******

BTW - i have the BIG u/s today to see if it really is skeletor or a skeletorette!

checking in

I know it's been a long time since i posted.  Not a whole lot has been going on, which is fantastic news!  I've been attending a craniosacral therapy class the past four days and i'm dog-tired.  So, I will have to post an update tomorrow.  Yes ... a few nicely exciting things have happened.  --til then ...

Prayers for Mark

A friend of a friend requested prayers for Mark.  Please read his story here.